I can’t understand his exact feelings for me?

I think he is right, you should find someone else that can be a perfect match for you. At least you got that feeling back of being wanted. You need to end the marrage though, and make sure the next person you persue is not married either. 2 wrongs dont make a right. You can go online to dating websites as well to look. www.plentyoffish.com is free. My brother met his wife on E-Harmony. It may sound cheesey but sometime those sites really work. Even if you dont fall in love with someone you can enjoy the company of others and meeting new people.